Watching The Pruitt-Igoe Myth made me think about this scene in Driftwood, where Willie appears to be feeling embarrassed in front of Aeron about the place where she lives, and Aeron tries to reassure her that he’s from a crappy background, too, perhaps ‘worse’ than hers.
It’s not that she really hates the place and thinks she is somehow better than other people living there, or something like that. It’s internalized stigmatization of yourself as a resident of a poor/’bad’ neighbourhood. Obviously she wouldn’t feel like that in front of people she knows are from similar places, like her friends (Sophie was from Chandless, too, but got kicked out by her mother and stepfather, and Robinson is from nearby low-income terraces). And towards a lot of people from ‘better’ neighbourhoods (like posh classmates of hers, or - in a way - her mum) she would rather feel proud about her working class neighbourhood.
But she did feel like that in front of Aeron, because she thinks he is really cool :3 … It’s extremely important to her what he thinks about her, and she’s overly conscious of all the ‘bad’ things about herself. It’s not only individual self-esteem issues, but internalized systematic stigmatization (towards poor, unemployed, single parent households, immigrants, addicts, residents of this specific neighbourhood, etc.) that even she as a relatively politically aware person hasn’t managed to purge from herself.
Besides, to her, what he’d mentioned about his background sounded rather nice and idyllic, and free and adventurous - certainly very different from the urban poverty that was her own reality.
#’getting strong without being broken first’ is like all i want from anything but especially girl monster stories #stop making women small before you let them be big #i am tired of revenge stories #i am tired of all my heroines hurting
One thing that really impressed me as a kid about Sailor Moon was that most - if not all - the monsters were female. (And not sexualized!)
Some people have asked for “origin stories” about Eva, how she became so badass … I’ve honestly tried to think of something, but she’s just always been badass (as is indeed kind of implied in Driftwood).
Oh, and O-Poh, the sea monster based on my guidance councelor at the time. :p Chief Razor Clam is female, too, but maybe I wasn’t able to draw it obviously enough back then …
I had a quite clear revelation of the rest of this chapter yesterday, when I finally had a chance to not think about dayjobs. And I’m looking forward to it. So let’s see when I can manage to draw it … I’ve been working my ass off lately, and various things have disrupted my routines, but I should be able to schedule a few hours per day for drawing (when I am home)?! V`(oo)´;V
Use “nearly” instead of “almost” in the dialogue of British characters, if there is any chance. :3
(I’m lettering the English book edition of Driftwood right now …)